hey there, my name's katie. i live on long island. 17 years old. 11:11. 3 day weekends. 500 days of summer. acoustic covers. alex evans. apples to apples. being young. bonfires.beach days. best friends. boys in baseball pants. coloring. cuddling. christmas time. daydreaming. doodling. dippin' dots. disney. family. fridays. freckles. glee. good morning texts. glitter. getting butterflies. holding hands. having fun. hot showers. ice cream. i love you's. jewelry. jeans. jesse ruben. kitkats. kite runner. knowing someone cares. laughing. little kids. lightning. long hugs. music. making people smile. moving clouds. nevershoutnever. nikon d3000. notes from best friends. naps. opportunities. old pictures. pretty sunsets. postsecret. queen size beds. quiet rooms. rain. reading. red mango. roasting marshmallows. sweaters. summer. sleeping late. sundresses. talking. texting. trying new things. under the stars. understanding. vacation. vanilla. wishes. walking around town. winter. being too lazy to think of words for the letter x. youth group. you. zumba. zoning out.
I don’t want to be alone. I have never wanted to be alone. I fucking hate it. I hate that I have no one to talk to, I hate that I have no one to call, I hate that I have no one to hold my hand, hug me, tell me everything is going to be alright. I hate that I have no one to share my hopes and my dreams with, I hate that I no longer have any hopes or dreams, I hate that I have no one to tell me to hold on, that I can find them again. I hate that when I scream, I scream bloody murder, that I am screaming into emptiness. I hate that there is no one to hear my scream and that there is no one to help me learn how to stop screaming. I hate that what I have turned to in my lonliness lives in a pipe or bottle. I hate that what I have turned to in my lonliness is killing me, has already killed, or will kill me soon. I hate that I will die alone. I will die alone in my horror. More than anything all I have ever wanted is to be close to someone. More than anything, all I have ever wanted is to feel as if I wasn’t alone. - A Million Little Pieces
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